I'm just hurting a lot right now

And I wonder if I ever won't be
Because it's been so long 
And it seems like I'm the only one who still cares 


Death is my best friend and my worst enemy 
We spend too much time together 
And even when he's not around 
he's on my mind 
But I hate him

I'm not one to hate people
And I can't think of a single other person I hate
But I hate him 

And I blame him 

For this 

This

Feeling